Flashback Friday…….the Birthday Boy

Hey friends,

I’ve been a little emotional this week.  Every year around this time of year my heart just feels so full.  I’m reminded in the month of May just how wonderfully faithful God is.  I’ve never shared this before, but it took me almost two years to get pregnant with my son, my first born, Collin.  I can’t tell you how many at-home pregnancy tests I took with a negative result.  I can’t even remember how many nights I cried myself to sleep.

The long and short of it is basically, I have an under active thyroid, and it took a while for my doctors to get it under control.  While most women have a monthly opportunity to get pregnant I have just a few times year.

The day I found out I was pregnant I was sitting in my doctor’s office getting ready to start fertility drugs.  She always made me take a test to “see” if I was already pregnant.  I remember thinking to myself, “This is so pointless we all know this is going to be negative!”  In fact, I didn’t even look at the stick.  My doctor came in and thought I had already seen the results.  She started congratulating me, and I sat there just staring in disbelief.  Big tears started rolling down my face as they are now I as I remember that very moment. I will never forget how I felt that day.

For this child I prayed, I cried, I wished, I dreamed, I hoped.

It’s amazing how one test, one day, one moment can forever impact your life!  Your song by Elton John came on the radio as I was driving home from my appointment that day, and I always think of that song on Collin’s birthday……how wonderful life is while you’re in the world!

I can’t even believe it’s been 8 years since he was born?!

The days, weeks, months, years go by so very fast.  What I’ll remember about him at this age is…….

he has the sweetest little freckles, and he hates to have his picture taken.

His closet floor usually looks like this.

His shoelaces are never tied.

I love this kid with my whole heart.  He was definitely worth the wait.  I treasure him and the journey it took to bring him into this world.  
His actual birthday is on Monday but we’re getting our party on all weekend long!  
I hope you all have a great weekend too!  

xoxo,

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  • what a sweet sweet post! happy birthday, collin! i tried for about 6 months with sawyer with no luck and we found out i was not ovulating at all. i took clomid for 3 months…. and finally it worked! it was not as long of a process as it was for you but i know when you are trying it feels like forever and you wonder if it will ever happen. and then one day, the stick says positive. i remember being SO happy that day. then when we had our 18 week ultrasound the dr showed us there were cysts on his brain. they said it could be nothing it could be something- come back in 6 weeks. oh those 6 weeks were agony. i had waited and wanted this baby so much, and i wanted him to be healthy. but even if he wasn't perfect, he as ours and we were going to love him no matter what. 6 weeks later, the cysts were gone, and then 4 months later, he was born, and my life had never felt so full and complete. anyhow, i know how you feel and i am SO happy for you. love you, friend!

  • Happy birthday to your sweet son!!! I have a very similar story. I was waiting in my drs office to start fertility treatments and took the standard pregnancy test. It came back positive too. It makes me realize what an amazing miracle every child is.

  • What a sweet post Carmel! Happy birthday to your boy! What adorable dimples he has :-). Hope you all have a wonderful weekend celebrating!

  • Oh, Carmel. I am such a fan of your blog, and particularly your outlook on life. I am a terrible commenter (in that I rarely do it – is commenter a word? I digress…). I just felt compelled to say what a lovely post you wrote today about your sweet boy. Sounds like the stars aligned perfectly and you were meant for each other – he is as lucky as you are. Hope he has a wonderful birthday!

  • Ok, First off, I love that boy, he's so stinkin' cute! Secondly, speaking of the Sweetest Thing…that cd you guys sent us when he was a baby, eating cheerios set to that music was possibly the sweetest thing i've ever seen! I don't think I remember watching my own kids eat cheerios for as long as i sat there watching baby Collin…in fact, we all sat and watched it a second time while eating our breakfast with him! Happy Birthday weekend guys! We don't see you nearly enough – squeeze the boy for us! xoxo

  • What a sweet post for such a sweet boy – you got me all teary this morning!! Have a wonderful birthday weekend – he's at such a sweet age.

  • What an absolutely sweet, tear-jerker of a post! It took a year and a half with our first, so I can really relate to pregnancy tests and tearful nights…and the joy of that moment when everything you'd been praying and hoping for comes true! Happy, happy birthday, Collin! I hope you know what a fantastic mama you have! (c:

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